It was while dancing to this song, shortly after Chris de Burgh’s Patricia the Stripper song, in the Female workshop run by Dora (dora\’s website), that I started crying yesterday.
It was not an ordinary cry. It was from deep inside the bowels of me, from a wound that was older than time, the cry came from far inside my body and was teased up through the womb into the heart through the throat and out of my mouth.
It was a blood-curdling, heart-wrenching sob. Tears, stored up for time immemorial just flowed and flowed. they started coming slowly at first, dusty, unsure they were ready to leave the well of pain that had stored them, until finally like a crescendo, a water fall, they escaped.
At first there was the laughter while we all danced to Patricia The Stripper and then I felt the goosebumps and then, when the song If I Could started playing, the crying, the howling, the release started, and into the next song as I stood swaying, my body started to shake uncontrollably.
It was leaving me, that particular pain that I, and others, have harboured and housed for so many years , it was going, being transformed.
I guess that is why dora calls her workshops ‘transformational’. Something on a cellular level is changed, something is released. And layer upon layer, as the journey takes you closer to the Light and the Truth of who you really are, the freer you feel and the more intense the feeling of peace.
And in my healing yesterday as I heard other women around me cry and laugh I felt so connected to everyone. I had such a sense of this: that you and me, we are one.
That we are all one.
From being Alone comes All One. From a writer’s perspective the one thing that takes us from Alone to All one is the extra letter L. I like to think that extra L stands for LOVE, that which takes us from ALONE into ALL ONE is the LOVE
To all the women who supported me at the workshop yesterday, thank you
To the greater consciousness that is us, and that keeps me going, thank you
And especially to you who is reading this and supporting me, thank you
Have an extraordinary day, and wherever you are, may The Love find you